Today-- Deutoronomy 1 &2--- Do not fear & Trust

Third Day's Song:

You are beautiful my sweet, sweet song
You are beautiful my sweet, sweet song
You are beautiful my sweet, sweet song
And I will sing again

You are so good to me
You heal my broken heart
You are my Father in Heaven (2x)

You are beautiful my sweet, sweet song
You are beautiful my sweet, sweet song

You ride upon the clouds
You lead me to the truth
You are the Spirit inside me

Today I read through Deuteronomy 1 & 2.  I have never had a desire to read Deut. before but today the Holy Spirit lead me there.  The is told by Moses & ultimately is about the Israelites unbelief and lack of trust in God.  Because of this unbelief, they did not obey the Lord's commandment to go

"But you were unwilling to go up; you rebelled against the command of the LORD your God. ²⁷ You grumbled in your tents and said, “The LORD hates us; so he brought us out of Egypt to deliver us into the hands of the Amorites to destroy us. ²⁸ Where can we go? Our brothers have made our hearts melt in fear. They say, ‘The people are stronger and taller than we are; the cities are large, with walls up to the sky. We even saw the Anakites there.’”
 ²⁹ Then I said to you, “Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. ³⁰ The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, ³¹ and in the wilderness. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place.” 

 ³² In spite of this, you did not trust in the LORD your God, ³³ who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and to show you the way you should go."

They saw the Anakites were "stronger and taller" than they (v. 28) and disobeyed God's command.
There root of their sin was unbelief.  A lack of faith. Distrust.
When they then realized that they were wrong, (v. 41) and tired to go on their OWN strength, they failed miserably. 

^41" Then you replied, “We have sinned against the LORD. We will go up and fight, as the LORD our God commanded us.” So every one of you put on his weapons, thinking it easy to go up into the hill country.  ⁴² But the LORD said to me, “Tell them, ‘Do not go up and fight, because I will not be with you. You will be defeated by your enemies.’”
 ⁴³ So I told you, but you would not listen. You rebelled against the LORD’s command and in your arrogance you marched up into the hill country. ⁴⁴ The Amorites who lived in those hills came out against you; they chased you like a swarm of bees and beat you down from Seir all the way to Hormah. ⁴⁵ You came back and wept before the LORD, but he paid no attention to your weeping and turned a deaf ear to you. ⁴⁶ And so you stayed in Kadesh many days—all the time you spent there. "

They wept and complained & "whoa as me..." and they were beaten down from Seir.. chased like a swarm of bees!!  (v. 41 & 44).  God turned His ear then from them... much like a gentle parent would do when their child does not obey.. as if to say " I told you not to "____."  That's what happens when you "_________."  Like a good parent, God let them suffer the natural consequences of their disobedience, rebellion & lack of trust in Him.  And like ignorant children, the Israelites had to learn the lesson the "hard way."  They were then sent into the desert for 40 days.

How often do we do this?  We don't trust the Lord enough.  I am so guilty of trying to control things on my own, only to look back and see.. oh yeah if I would have just...
The good news is there is Grace.  The Lord did not forsake His children the Israelites, instead He provided all their needs for the 40 days in the desert.  He was with them anyways and blessed them. (Deut 2, v. 7)

The lesson here to be learned is to trust in Him.  To pray for increased faith and He will provide.
 ⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
   and lean not on your own understanding;
⁶ in all your ways submit to him,
   and he will make your paths straight.^[a]
Proverbs 3:5-6

We can't do things on our strength, nor can we obsess about what the future holds of try on our own to KNOW His will.  He may not want us to know His will.  Our commandments are  to Trust in Him, to Love Him with all our hearts & souls & minds, and to love & serve are neighboors (enemies, roommates, friends, etc) as ourselves.  All we can do today is seek righteousness (Matt. 6:33)and to walk worthy today and obey Him today.  For tomorrow will bring it's own glory & trials.
For Christ said, according to the Gospel of Matthew
  

 " ²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life^[e]?
   ²⁸ “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹ Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? ³¹ So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. "

Love your sister,
Katherine